I'm sitting here pondering all that this mercury has taken from me. Tonight I'll go down in to the engine room. My brain fog might or might not kick in. If it does not, I'll have a good shift. My boss will talk about certain components of this ship and how they work and what I must do to keep this ship as a whole to keep it working efficiently. If I go down below and the mercury happens to take over, Its over before it began. No matter what anyone says to me I won't be able fully comprehend it. I remember pre-mercury. If I didn't know of a certain subject, If I was subjected to it long enough my brain did what it was designed to do and learn, but as one of the symptoms of mercury poisoning the mind, one is incapable of learning anything.I sit here with a tremendous opportunity to make a lot of money. Working anywhere in the oil industry your gonna rack in the dough. This company is building 16 brand new ships and its not the largest in the Gulf. Some 60 or so Oil rigs are suppose to built in the next few years. The only problem I have is that I can't learn how to efficiently do my job if this mercury doesn't come out of my brain. I have 13 rounds in, Cutler says 50 rounds people "Start" to feel themselves again. I was listening to an interview the other day with Cutler and another doctor that used the Cutler protocol because he was poisoned by his amalgams and the doctor quoted something that Cutler had told him, he told him its going to take a good 3-4 years before being at 100%....I don't have that long. I want the magic pill. I want to take one pill and everything return back to as they were pre amalgam. Unfortunately thats not how it works. I'm in this for the long hall...
I'm considering on chelating while on ship. If my brain isn't going to function correctly than there's no reason I should hold back from healing it. I only have enough DMSA for one round @ 25 mg a dose. I was up to 50 mg. I have plenty of ALA, though I'll have to make smaller doses. I have 120 mg pills and last round knocked me through a loop.
Mercury is a horrible element. It takes everything from you. It acts just like sin. its almost impossible to get rid of.(Sin is, apart from the blood of Christ.) Its always there to completely ruin your life.If anyone has been following my posts, they would realize that I haven't been talking all that much about God. My greatest passion my heart has ever experienced I feel I just can't enjoy anymore because of the way mercury has its grip on me. Someone who's brain isn't completely poisoned won't understand how it feels to have someone talking to them and the words are like Snoopy's teacher just gabbing away and the neurons aren't doing their job and putting the words together and confirming a conclusion. its a horrible feeling. I sat on the back deck and the chief mate was telling me and another gentleman about one of the mates that went home. He was complaining about having Lyme disease. Now I know that Lyme disease mirror's mercury poisoning. I know that as they chelate they get better....Maybe this cat doesn't know he's mercury poisoned. The Chief Mate was mocking the lad for such an outrageous claim. It sucks having something that your friends and your family can't have sympathy for because they simply don't believe you. I've talked to people about Mercury and I get that "look." LIke I'm a kook. a whack job. a funny duddy. one who doesn't have all his marbles. When I first came to Christ, I had someone in church prophesy over me that "Through my mouth I will heal many, It's what I had been through and it has to do with children. It says in 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 " Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort,who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort
those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we
ourselves are comforted by God." When one has been afflicted with mercury and all its debilitating effects it has on the body and mind and is healed from those effects, they can't help but share the good news. Its the very reason the Gospel has taken root in every continent and country in the world. People are poisoned by the effects of sin. It dims there whit spiritually and holds them captive to do what ever it so desires and Jesus comes and saves them and heals them and comforts them. They have no other choice but to tell of this great and mighty thing God had done for them.
There is a victory story, One day I will sit on top of the mountain and shout of the healing waters that flows from Jesus. If that happens to be helping people cope with Mercury poisoning or being a Pastor or an elder or an evangelist. One who disciples people on how to get well through the effects of whatever is debilitating them. No matter where He leads me, I hope to do so with His passion.
In His service,
Joey Ruggiero
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